untittled

too many things happend recently,

its hard to say it nor to swallow it.

i finally see the differences, way too different to be exact here.

hmm, got my finger crossing.

i'll just leave it to bruno mars to explain it to you..

p/s : pergolakan perasaan..

Note for a 'Friend'

Last night I’ve received a text-message from  unknown person. Saying how sorry she was, n begging me from stop hating her. I was thinking to myself, I’m not hating anyone for this moment in fact that girl, I’ve  already forgive her for all the damages she done to my life

Hmm, but there’s just something I wanna say to this person;

“ Kawan, kau pernah jadi kawan aku dulu, aku x mintak kau hadir dalam hidup aku pun. Kau datang masa aku susah, kau hulurkan bantuan, aku terima, kita jadi kawan dari saat tu. Kau susah aku tolong, kau ada masalah aku dengar, aku bagi bahu aku ni supaya kau boleh alirkan airmata kau. Tapi semua tak lama, aku dapat tahu rupanya kau nak memperalatkan aku saja. Kau ada agenda tersembunyi kenapa kau kawan dengan aku. Aku tak bodoh. Aku dapat tahu semua tu. Kita come clean. Yah, aku maafkan kau. Sebab bagi aku semua tu hanya kesilapan kau yang kau sendiri tak sedar. Haa memang kita sama-sama tak matang lagi masa tu. Kau banyak kali buat taik kat aku. Aku diam saja in fact aku maafkan kau sambil senyum. Tapi, aku tak boleh tipu betapa terlukanya hati aku ni knowing my best friend back-stabbing me. My own best friend! I’m no fool.

Sekali lagi aku dah lama maafkan kau. Cuma sekarang aku tak nak ambil port langsung pasal life kau. Kau pernah jadi kawan aku dulu, tapi cukup lah sekadar dulu saja. Aku tak nak dah ambil tahu pasal life kau, kau buat lah apa yang membahagia kan hidup kau. Aku tak kisah. Kau bahagia cukup lah buat kau. Dan hidup aku, kau jangan ambil kisah. Aku dah tak da kena mengena dengan kau atau orang sekeliling kau.

Sekali lagi kau jangan lah risau, aku dah lama maafkan kau. Cuma tolong jangan ambil tahu pasal aku dah. Aku dah delete suma memori aku dengan kau, jadi kau jangan ingatkan aku pasal hal dulu. Jangan tanya sekali pun. Aku dah betul-betul tak nak tahu pasal kau. Setiap kali kau hadir semula dalam ingatan aku, it hurts me so bad, so bad that I feel suffocate. Aku Cuma nak muntah kan semula kau. Muntahkan semua. Semua sekali. 

Dear, just move on and please  get  a life, find something to do beside ruin somebody’s life. Look at me, I’ve move on with my own life, I’m happy right now. I hope u doing the same. In fact I actually don’t even give a damn about it. You know what u really taught me something about life and people. Hmm, and one thing that really regret me the most is that having u as my friend before or even knowing u. Right now, u talking about holding grudge? Gimme a break.. I’ve no feeling towards u, hatred? Haha..what a joke. Just leave me alone. Damage has been done.

p/s: always forgive your enemy but never forget their names..

What's On Ur Mind..?

Ok, an hour before my broadband expired. Still got time, emm what to do..? Let play this game, oso found this in nana's blog. ( If u don't mind dear, thanks ) =) Here goes nothing..

WHO

Starting time : 8.20 pm

Name : munira mazlan

Brother(s) : nope, don't have one.

Eye Color : black

Shoe Size : 7 to 8

Hair : black

Piercing : both ears

What are you wearing right now : pajamas =)

Height : 162 cm

Where do you live : Penang

Favorite Number : err.. 1  =P 

Favorite Drink : Honey green tea, lemonade 

Favorite Month : February, december

Favorite Breakfast : milk, bread, nasi lemak..nyumnyum..

HAVE YOU EVER

Broken a bone : Nope

Been in a police car : Nope

Fallen for a friend : Yeah, of course

Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : Yeah, yeah

Swam in the ocean : I can't swim!

Fallen asleep in school : Yup, especially when it chemistry class!

Broken someone's heart : Emm, I guess yes.

Cried when someone died : I hardly cry.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Yeah, million times!

Save e-mails : Nope.

Been cheated on : Huh..T_T

WHAT

Your room look like : Clothes everywhere.

What is right beside you : A big teddy bear 

What is the last thing you ate : Laksa =)

WHO

Who did you last yell at : Adik

Who was the last person you danced with : Err...

Who last made you smile : Him.. =)

FINAL QUESTION

What are you listening to right now : When it all falls apart - The Veronicas

What did you do today : On9, eating, text messaging, sleeping..

Are you the oldest : nope

Indoors or outdoors : Outdoor

TODAY YOU DID

Talk to someone you like : my family.

Kiss anyone : my family, again.

Sing : Everytime ( though I sound like froggy )

Talk to your ex : NO!!!

Miss someone : Hmm, him. ( did he miss me too...? )

Eat : for sure la

LAST PERSON WHO

You talked to on the phone : My sister

Made you cry : My sister 

You went to the mall with : My girlfriends

Who cheered you up : them ;)

HAVE YOU

Been to Mexico : nope

Been to USA : nope, I wish

RANDOM

Have a crush on someone : Yeah, like right now.

What books are you reading right now : Memoirs of a geisha

Best feeling in the world : eating a dark chocolate ( Kenny g songs on the background )

Future kids name : I have no idea

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : nope

What's under your bed : Emm, dust..?

Favorite sport(s) : Emm..dunno. I just play everything.

Favorite place : Err..hommie

Who do you really hate : No idea.

Do you have a job : nope at this moment

What time is it now : 8.45 pm










p/s : i'm so bored,...T_T

Touch and Go

~ I was reading on my friend's blog;

www.nurfarhanakassim.blogspot

~ Interested to try, so here we go!

Whats your name?

*munira mazlan

When is your birthday?

* 01 february ( past already )

How do you feel right now

* I miss him ( secretely ) + wanna pee 

What did you do on your birthday last year?

* studying..?? ( exam lol )

What about this year?

* reciting Al-Quran, solat hajat, crying ( means a lot )

How do you relax?

* by looking at the sky..?

Whats your favorite book?

* penawar kegundahan hati ( an old kitab )

Who was the last person to text you?

* wan haziq and adik muna

What about call you?

* adik muna ( free calls, her birthday haha )

Who was your last ex?

* doesn't ring the bell..tet..

Have you ever been drunk?

*hell no

What did you wear last halloween?

* pajamas I think

When did you last cry?

* err..oso doesn't ring the bell

Are your parents still together?

* yeah

Who did you last argue with?

* my sister

What time did you go to bed last night?

* 3.35 am 

Who is your best friend?

* yana, mimi, imah, cici, nonie ( best friend with 'S' )

Do you bite your nails?

* nope

What about toe nails?

* certainly big NO

What are your hobbies?

* emm, thinking..??

Have you ever watched the sun set?

* Most of the time

Where did last vacation to?

* Kuala Besut, Terengganu

Whats your hair color?

* black

What are you wearing?

*shorts and shirt ;)

Do you wear makeup?

* sometimes..eyeliner is a must

Do you get hayfever?

* nope

What music are you into?

* depends on the mood, heavy rock to be true

Have you ever been out with your best friend’s ex?

* errr...not sure

Ever sneak out of your house?

* no laa

What did you do today?

* watching movies, marathon!

What are you doing tomorrow?

* watching movies, again.

What the last thing you ate?

* kuew teaw goreng + fried chicken

Are you a forgiving person?

* depends, most of the time; YES.

Are you mad at anyone right now?

* yeah

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?

*NO

Ever had a garage sale?

*nope

What is/was your school like?

* orange, round, awesome!

Describe your best friend?

* Giler kentang, haha

Do you like your partner’s family?

* err..I dun have a partner yet.

When did you last smile and why?

* =) just now, suddenly I think 'bout him  

Have you ever cheated in a test?

* yeah

Are you scared of falling in love?

* yeah, afraid of being 'syok sendiri'

Have you ever felt replaced?

* emm..dunno.,maybe yes.

Do you trust your friends?

* depends

Do you like coffee?

* not really, but certainly yes when it rains.. ( strange though )

Have you had kids?

* nope, I'm not married yet.

If not, do you want them?

* of course!

Are you brainy

* hohoho

What was the last film you watched?

* pirates of the carribean: on strangers tides

Whats the time?

* 5 pm

How old are you going to be in 7 months?

* 20, still.

Was yesterday better then today?

* yeah, shopping baby!

When did you last see your mum?

* 3 hours ago, before she gone to bed.

Your dad?

* same

Your boyfriend/girlfriend?

* emm, years ago..

Do you smile often?

* =)

Do you collect anything?

* err..receipt bills..?

Can you remember your dreams?

* not quite

Do they come true?

* haa..?? dunno.

Who would you kill right now if you could?

* no one ( I'm a life saver not a killer! )

Where were you 4 hours ago?

* here, stalking someone's blog

What song describes your life right now?

* a beautiful mess - jason mraz

Whats your biggest regret?

* the fact that I hate Maths..T_T

Whats your body type?

* err..??

Do you have any scars?

* yeah, on the face

What from?

* mosquito coil 

What pets do you have?

* I don't have one

Where do you get your music from?

* radio..old cassettes. 

Your most recent lie

* "yeah, I'm okay"

A lie you tell yourself

* " He likes you too dear.. dun worry "

You are embarrassed when you

* being watch, face to face, eye to eye..!

The memory that still makes you laugh

* when I was in the cheerleading comp. a year ago, I make a back flip and bridge my back, I froze  a while the position so dat we can make a waow ending, but it turned that I was the one left alone with the strange move on the stage, while all my team members were looking at me, the music stopped, so do the crowds. ( the crickets    

sounds on the background ) 

How you picture the end of the world

* grind the coffee ground 

People you would like to see to take this:-

* him

p/s : waow..susah nye nak jawab soklan soklan tu, SPM lagi senang =P

Music Freak?

Put your music library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4. Ok, go!

TRY NOT TO CHEAT!!!

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OK?" YOU SAY?
Whatever You Like - T.I

2) HOW WOULD YOU BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
 Never Gonna Leave This Bed - Maroon 5

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
You Give Me Something - James Morrison

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Rolling In The Deep - Adele

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Like a Stone - Audioslave

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I'm With You - Avril Lavigne

7) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
What's My Name - Rihanna

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Don't Know Why - Norah Jones

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Feel Good inc. - Gorillaz

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Speechless - Lady Gaga

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Breathe Easy - Blue

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Airplane - BOB ft Hayley Williams

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Want To Hold Your Hand - The Beatles

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Grenade - Bruno Mars

16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Crank That - Soulja Boy

17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Don't Speak - No Doubt

18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Sweet Dreams - Beyonce

19) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Scars - Paparoach

20) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Please Don't Go - Mike Posner

21)WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
What The Hell - Avril Lavigne

if u interested with this, just enjoy and do it by urself

p/s : Haha..jadi mengarut tapi kena jugak ngan soalan..yah so strange., 

creep

Lokasi : 

Atas katil

Mood : 

Depressed

Aktiviti : 

Radiohead-Creep 

( teringat once said; dengar banyak kali boleh kena refer PSY ) haha

Hmm..I hate this feeling, wah sangat depressed sekali. Macam nak hentak kepala kat dinding, nasib kepala susah nak buat operation ja, kalo tak memang dah lama hentak. So much hassle. Drama. Hatred. 

Fuhh..Tarik nafas dalam dalam, hembus dengan berat sekali. Get a grip moon. You can handle this situation. Yes I am handling this situation calmly just like before. Yeah sekali lagi kita yang mengalah demi nak puas kan hati orang sekeliling. Don't u know how bad it hurts my feeling? Bengkak hati.

Haha..Membazir je bebel kat sini. Aku dah kalis. Lali. Manusia memang begitu. Takpa moon. Kau dah buat benda betul. Just let her be that way. Memang dah macam tu.

Ya Allah, kuatkan lah diriku ini.

p/s: Hey moon, jangan nangis!

5 Minit Terakhir

Tik tok tik tok.

5.30 am, jam berbunyi.

Snooze.

Ringggg..

Off, finally.

Buka mata, 6.25 am.

Repeat again, 6.25 am.

OMG, I'm late.!!

Bus bergerak 6.30 am, gosh macam mana nak buat?

Terjun katil, buka lampu, kebuntuan melanda.

Pandang roomate, sedapnya kau tidur. Siap tarik selimut bagai.

I got only 5minutes left.

Nak mandi tak?

Hell no tak sempat!

Nak basuh muka tak?

Lantak lah, nak comel-comel ke nak kena tinggal bus?

Biar lah.

Nasib.

2minutes: pakai uniform,

1minute: tengok cermin, sembur perfume banyak-banyak

1minute: capai beg taruk berus gigi, ubat gigi, facial foam, towel

1minutes: turun tangga 1tingkat

Next..??

Sampai parking bus, at last! Tarik nafas dalam-dalam.

Bas tak jalan lagi pun, ceyh..! Penat rushing macam orang gila.

Naik bas, termenung sambil bau badan sendiri, said to myself,

" Emm not bad though.."

Haha..

Sampai Hospital, after semua kerja beres, in about 1hour, finally dapat mandi semua, kat dalam tandas.

Fuhh..

What a day.

What was I thinking..???

Tak akan dilupakan punya lah, terbaik punya.

p/s: Ni semua gara-gara farewell dinner semalam. Arghh..